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Across The Line

Reflection
(instrumental)

Pathway

I never saw it coming
I couldn't turn away
Now outside looking down on me
At the end of all my days
Torn from all I ever knew
A lost and naked soul
I'm reaching out for anyone
To help me keep control

They can't hear me speak now
But there's so much left to say
I fade in and fade out
I can't let it end this way

Took all I had for granted
Now I know how much I've lost
I see the line ahead of me
But I refuse to cross
Afraid to lose myself to this
Afraid of what may come
On this road of broken promises
The path of life undone

They can't hear me speak now
But there's so much left to say
I fade in and fade out
I can't let it end this way

Fade in
Fade out
Fade In
Fade out
I can't just fade away

They can't hear me speak now
And there's so much left to say
I fade in and fade out
No I won't let it end this way

Holding On

I still can't quite believe it
This can't be real - I'm not prepared for this
Familiar voices call my name
From a distant light but I just turn away

I keep holding on
I keep holding on
It's time
To leave this life
But I don't know where else to go
Or what I should do

Got to Get myself together
Or at least what's left and go it on my own
Find my way back home

I keep holding on
I keep holding on
It's time
To leave this life
The choice is mine
But it feels like I'm torn in two

It's not the end it's just a change
The choice is mine to turn the other way
I choose to stay

I keep holding on
I keep holding on
I know it's time
To leave this life
But there's nowhere I'd rather go
There's too much left to do

To Be

Can I really call this home?
Through these rooms I walk, my presence still unknown
I want to go back
To how it used to be
Why does this seem so wrong?
When all I want is
To feel again
To be again
To touch your life
And be free again
At peace within
Beyond the end of it all

Torn between your world and mine
I reach out to you so many times
But when you look back
You don't ever see
Why does this seem so wrong?
When all I want is
To feel again
To be again
To touch your life
And be free again
At peace within
Beyond the end of it all

I had reasons to stay
But like myself they just fade away
And it seems that all has changed
The time has gone
There's nowhere I belong

Losing Time

Run - I'm going nowhere
I - I fall behind
Lost - I don't belong here
Time is not mine

Lost in the gray I see what is
So different than before
All I knew is changed or gone
A truth I can't ignore
I still won't let this break me
I still need to try
But all the reasons I stayed are gone
Can't find a reason why

Run - I'm going nowhere
I - I fall behind
Lost - I don't belong here
Time is not mine

In too far over my head now
This is not what it seemed
In the blink of an eye the illusion becomes
A faded memory

Out of time or out of my mind
I no longer know
I can't shake this feeling
My time was lost when I turned from the light

Time will go on
I will go on
Hours they pass by and days become wasted and months become years in the blink of an eye
Nothing's the same here I don't belong I know I should move on and cross that line
The river of time will not flow back
Just keeps moving forward faster and faster
I will go on

Through The Darkness

At the threshold of this chasm I stand
alone to face myself
Afraid of all that I've become
So drawn into this shell
No answers, no questions, I can't focus - nothing makes any sense
I'm falling, through the darkness, and there's no one to come to my defense

No voices
No others
Nothing but the nothing I've become

I can't find - the light is gone I'm left to the unknown
I can't lie - I never should have gone out on my own
I can't hide - this is what it means to be alone

I lived a life devoid of questions
So afraid of knowing what's beyond
A chance in life to choose to see
Now that chance is gone
Obsessed now with my own self, my failures, my lies, and wasted time
Is this all that's left for me to be caught in the cycles of my mind

No voices
No others
Nothing but the nothing I've become

I can't find - the light is gone I'm left to the unknown
I can't lie - I never should have gone out on my own
I can't hide - this is what it means to be alone

Through The Light

Part 1: The Calling
Out of the darkness and pushed to the limit
Facing myself now I've nothing to hide
I realize that I put myself in it
With all I have left I have to find the light

Will they call me back?
Do I really deserve the chance at all?
Will I have to account for all my right and wrong
Will I be cast out for all this wasted time, and turning from the light

Over the distance the voices still calling
I know I can make it if I try
The pathway is open no chance of falling
I know what's right but the choice still has to be mine

Part 2: The Choice
The choice to move on
To let go
To depend on what I believe
To forgive
To be whole
Just to have the chance to see

The choice is my own
To let go
To release myself from this pain
So I face
The unknown
I choose the light unafraid

Part 3: The Essence Of Life
All I was, and all I am
All the good, and all the bad
All my eyes have ever seen
Is now laid bare in front of me

Times of joy and times of despair
The rights and wrongs, alone and shared
I understand what I didn't know
Within it all I have grown
A better self, a stronger soul

All I was, and all I am
All the good, and all the bad
Now the view that others see
Is all laid bare in front of me

The ones I've helped and those that I've hurt
I feel them all and through them I learn
I understand what I didn't know
That all are one, a single soul
Longing to grow, to be as one

All are one
Come be one

Familliar voices call my name
But this time in a different way
But I'm afraid to lose myself
It's all become so overwhelming now

'Cause through it all I'm reaching for
Something else, something more
But still afraid to go across the line

Part 4: The Sea Of Shadows
All goes quiet but still bathed in sound
I feel at ease as I finally touch ground
The crystal sands of a shore beneath my feet
The ocean taking form could carry me adrift in peace

As the waves cascade on the sea of shadows
It casts a lasting spell on me
Though deep inside I know I must go on

A place to quiet my mind and heal my soul
Here I could forget all I wanted to know
I could give in and stop where I am
But there's more I need to know and have to ask

As the waves cascade on the sea of shadows
A storm begins inside of me
And now I know that I must go on

Part 5: Soaring Above
So close now
So close now

Part 6: Breaking Through
Still through it all I'm reaching for
Something else, something more
Now unafraid to go across the line

Part 7: Distant Memory
It's quiet now, in this place I've found
It feels so much like home
A distant memory is coming back to me
Returning to the source we all come from

Suddenly connected,I start to realize
This is where I longed to be
All that held me back
Was letting go of the past
And now mistakes I've made all seem to fade away
Yet still so much the same at heart
Now ready to take part
These lessons learned to bring me back to the start

The storm inside breaks
As I take the final steps
A final choice to make
But this is not the end
Not just to say "I am"
But what I could become
To learn to love
Another life begun
Another chance to become one

Part 8: The Final Steps

We carry all we learn from one life to the next
Through mistakes and lessons learned we try our best
We may not have the answers now to take the final steps
But the spirit's never broken and we can never rest
Until we start to see that there is no wasted time
And every breath we take brings us closer to the line
And every time we cross, we learn and live so we can all become
Prepared to be as one

Across The Line
(instrumental)

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Cycles

Broken Glass

I'm falling fast through shades of white
and broken glass gets in your eyes
Fading out and diving fast
I feel the air as it flies past

And all I see is my whole life
One rushing scene for it all
Each moment lost as seconds die
as to the ground I fall

All of my life
All of my years
All of the wasted time
Too many tears I've caused
to make it all worthwhile
Why can't I make out a smile when I
will never see this world again

So this is how it has to end
Why did it all seem so pretend
Life isn't much until it's through
Blame who I want but I know the truth

Because I see my whole life
Another scene as before
What a waste of all that time
It should have been much more

All of my life
All of my years
All of the wasted time
Too many tears I've caused
to make it all worthwhile
Why can't I make out a smile when I
will never see this world again

So this is it
my whole life
Selfish to the final drop
No turning back
No second try
I hit the ground and it all stops

Cycles

If I can hold on just a little bit longer, just a little bit longer
Prove everyone wrong, show them my dreams are much more real than they seem
Go out for a drive, this place is a death trap, trying to hold me back
Gonna get out, gonna make it my own way, see what's on the other side

'Cause it feels like the end of the world
And it feels like the ground's giving in
Caught in the cycles of my mind
And there's something that I can do about it

Out all alone, I feel like a stranger, the world is so strange outside
5 years gone, now I'm trying to find what it is that I left behind
Go out for a drive, my mind is a deathtrap, trying to hold me back
It's not what I dreamed, the places may switch but the sorrow still grows inside

And it feels like the end of the world
And it feels like the ground's giving in
Caught in the cycles of my mind
And there's nothing that I can do about it now

I need the time to find all the reasons
For what's going on in my head
Gotta get back and pick up the pieces
And start all over again

Wherever I go I carry it with me
Uncertain for all of these years
The time and the place won't get any better
Until my conscience is clear

I'm not holding on
To something I can never be
II'll keep going on
Accepting what is true and what will be

Trick of the Light

See this life before you
See the sun in the sky
Can you grasp the fading fire
Can you reach that high
When you were a kid they filled your head
With dreams of shooting stars
The sum of the parts could not come close
To what you think you are

But in a moment
In an instant
The dream was gone
In a moment
In an instant
You're all alone

Given the chance you'd run off
And leave all you have behind
Seems everything you wanted to be
Just didn't fit in the design
And this morning you awake alone and afraid
Feeling like somebody else
How much more can you take
Before you lose yourself

That's all in the past now
You've made some strides
So close you can hold the flame
Changed your perspective
Let go some pride
Sold out for the greater gain

Now that everyone knows who you are
They tell you that you're so profound
Turn away from those who got you this far
You say you don't need them, don't need them, don't need them now
To thine own self you're only true
Now fear consumes all you do

'Cause in a moment
In an instant
It could be gone
In a moment
In an instant
You'll be alone

This is what you thought you wanted
This is what you thought you needed

This is what you worked so hard for
This is what you broke your back for
And the hearts of everyone you knew
Seems your spotlight made a monster out of you
But in your defense
To thine own self you were true

'Cause in a moment
In an instant
It all was gone
In a moment
In an instant
You're all alone

Reap what you sow and choke it down until you're full
Bury yourself in filth just like an animal
Not quite the way you planned for everything to go
Climbing so high to fall so low

The Distance


So what's it worth
to scratch the surface
Of what used to be your life
Was it the best
That you could offer
Every day more questions why

"Enough" I said. Just let it go
You've gone beyond your own control
It's always the same day after day

The Distance between
The head and the heart
Exisiting together but light years apart
Still going around instead of getting through
The Different extremes
Between then and now
When I reflect on it I wonder how
I'd walk away instead of run to you

Tell me again
How it's changing
How it's going to be allright
But today
I've spent a lifetime
Trying to bring you back to life

Enough, I should just let it go
It's far beyond my own control
Still it's the same day after day

The Distance between
The head and the heart
Exisiting together but light years apart
Still going around instead of getting through
The Different extremes
Between then and now
When I reflect on it I wonder how
I'd walk away instead of run to you

Day in day out the same every time
The more I give you the less you provide
All these things you're doing to yourself just close me out
Long ago you held all our hopes inside
I remember now but you don't even try
If you won't help yourself I have to decide
To make the choice and leave it all behind

(background)
Did you ever ask yourself why
Did you ever even try to be free
Wasting through your life and not even see it at all
Do I really feel the need to return
To the way it was before I had learned
That in the end there's no one else to blame but you

Accelerate

Look around
We're gonna loose control
Too far gone to know what's right
Consumed by the goal
Give it up
Time is on our side
Step out of the race for a minute
And find somplace outside and think about

Progression for posession. How much is too much to ask for?
Obsession is agression. Push each generation more to:

accelerate, procreate, animate, subjugate, accentuate the negative
graduate, eviscerate, fascinate, impersonate, invalidating what you give
subordinate, sophisticate, infatuate, recreate, escalate decline within
accumulate, isolate, suffocate, incinerate, terminate and start again

So you go
Pushing your way through
Guess you don't really give a damn about
Anyone but you
So much for trust
Defined by what we make
But there must be something deep inside
A feeling you can't shake that tells you

Progression for posession. How much is too much to ask for?
Obsession is agression. Push each generation more to:

accelerate, procreate, animate, subjugate, accentuate the negative
graduate, eviscerate, fascinate, impersonate, invalidating what you give
subordinate, sophisticate, infatuate, recreate, escalate decline within
accumulate, isolate, suffocate, incinerate, terminate and start again

No time left to talk about it
Nothing more to feel
Too closed-off to see beyond
Your fate already sealed
One wrong move in the grand design
And the whole thing falls apart
It's never enough just to have enough
Just got to leave your mark before you break

Progression for posession. How much is too much to ask for?
Obsession is agression. Push each generation more to:

accelerate, procreate, animate, subjugate, accentuate the negative
graduate, eviscerate, fascinate, impersonate, invalidating what you give
subordinate, sophisticate, infatuate, recreate, escalate decline within
accumulate, isolate, suffocate, incinerate, terminate and start again

No time left to talk
Nothing more to feel
No time left at all
Nothing more to know

Let It Flow

What's wrong little man?
We gave you a job now just go do it!
No, you don't understand
It's only fake if you don't believe in it
Turn the lights up
Write the perfect lines and we'll be through
And can you make up
Something we can all dance to?

Oh, there are those
who take as much as you are willing
And you know
The face is greater than what you say
You're too slow
Just tear yourself down and put it up for sale
Let it flow
Or shut your mouth and get out of the way

What?!? Are you joking?!?
Did you really think you had authority?
Can't be that you really
believed we took you seriously
Here ya go, a paycheck
That should shut you up for now
Have you met your replacement?
He's not too bright but he's not as down as you

There are those
who take as much as you are willing
And you know
The face is greater than what you say
You're too slow
Just tear yourself down and put it up for sale
Let it flow
Or shut your mouth and let the music play

Mass Suggestion
Part 1

A thought
A word
But something must be missing
A question of the heart we learn to hide
When all
Is done
And no one wants to listen
It's easier to leave it all aside
But this time I can't turn away
From what I feel inside

Gaining sight, I'm holding out
This distrust has led to doubt
The motives I see clear behind the mask
Where are the signs that I need most
And where is the guiding holy host
Some kind of direction is all I ask

'Cause I need something more to go on now
A reason to belieive in something more somehow
I'm not drawn to the mass suggestion
What I need is mine alone
Pushing me in so many directions
This fight inside goes on and on
And I'm not afraid to walk this road alone
Though the road that opens to me has become the great unknown

Outlooks fall as the cynic rips
Venom pours from fingertips
Anger is so easy when they can't hit back
Assault on sense in every scene
Shutting out becomes routine
Guarded to the point that fear is fact

I just need something more to go on now
A reason to belieive in something more somehow
I'm not drawn to the mass suggestion
What I need is mine alone
Pushing me in so many directions
This fight inside goes on and on and on

Tearing down my own illusions
Holding on and flying blind
Start to see my own conclusions
But other voices end my peace of mind

Mass Suggestion
Part2

Now it comes, the time to find
What I can stand to leave behind
Is it worth the ties that I might break
Takes strength to stand alone
Once you know you don't belong
I've been fed as much as I can take

And I try to break away
Done with holding out for more
and hanging on like something's going to change

So many days to fall behind
So many ways to lose your mind
Gotta raise your voice or get drowned out
So many people that I see
Follow what the next believes
The mob is just too dense to go without

And I try to break away
Done with holding out for more
and hanging on like something's going to change
like something's 'gonna change

This is what it comes to
Another point of view
Talk but no one hears
Disillusioned to dissapear
Institutions use the name
Making masses all the same
To keep you in line

And I try to break away
Done with holding out for more
Now I see that nothing's going to change

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